Riding Through it All ...

Care... This word has been used so often in our everyday lives that few pause to ponder over its actual meaning. While a variation of definitions surfaces, I do believe that a big bunch who does truly filter this word through the analytical process of the brain will nod their heads in agreement with my definition! To me, to care for your best friend or someone who matters a lot to you means more than just to visit the person in the hospital when he is seriously sick or when half of his leg is cut off. Nor does it simply refer to a few hours of talk when the person is heartbroken. Care also does embrace the little not-very-significant events that befall the person, and therefore, land the person in the state of sorrow--if not depression. A simple text to ask whether the person is doing okay, however insignificant it may seem, in fact, does lift up the spirit of the person in a surprising way. So does the straight look in the eyes followed by sincere words of concern, "Are you okay?

New Year is on its way, and though I have to admit that I do not feel the slightest excitement about it, I do wholeheartedly hope that 2011 will be a more fruitful year for me, and will be the year I could strike a balance on my emotional being, for it has, no doubt, been on the brink of being torn down. Anyways, i came across a saying in Facebook today which goes, "You cannot expect different results by doing the same things". I think this is going to be a motto for me this new year! I will always repeat this saying over and over in my head to keep myself moving forward in a more productive and satisfactory way. It will serve as a tool that drives me in the direction of more self-satisfaction.

I feel the intense feeling of disappointment here in my chest! I feel I have lost my best friend! This reshapes my view about having a best friend. I have to admit that NOW i start to lose trust in bestfriendship. I really do!