Riding Through it All ...

So the fun is over, or at least, it almost is, since I am already leaning quite comfortably onto the comfy seat of Sorya bus while it is purring with pleasure at the approximate speed of 70km/h ... The KPS trip, though with just the three of us, was enjoyable--most part of it was. I had a chance to experience fishing from a fishing boat in the middle of the sea and diving into the vastness of 15-meter-something-deep sea from the boat. The sad part, though, was having to see the stressed-out looks of my two friends. And most of the time onshore, they were caught up in some thoughts, deep faraway thoughts, the thoughts I kn but the depth and the pain of which I would never kn... It broke my heart seeing them in such conditions and there was little I could help despite how much I want to help. Sighs life sucks! Love sucks!

Suddenly, friends and acquaintances find themselves being swallowed up by problems, most of which are love-related. If I were the Vendy from 3 years ago, I would not be at ease perching on top of my chair, simply observing them from the distance. I would be too caught up in dashing about from one to another, asking them with probing questions, trying to fill myself in those shoes, and stressing my brain out to think of ways to best help them out of the misery. If there is anything that hinders me from engaging in the routine again, it must be the lessons I have learnt from such acts. First of all, I have finally come to the realization that there is so much I can do yet so little I should do. Probably it is true that I am gifted with a "good" pair of ears, and over the course of time and experiences, sitting down with and genuinely listening to them pouring their hearts out for just 3 hours helps them feel more relieved than trying to run around to get their things fixed on

Ok, this is exciting!!!!!!!!!! So this is the novel in English written by a Cambodian author!!! I mean, whoa!!! I dropped by IFL bookstore this morning just to get a marker, and then the word "Sangha" caught my attention. Intuitively I took the book off the shelf, and my heart was pounding fast knowing it was written by a Cambodian author, an IFLer to be exact. And this is just a book! It gives me ideas on how to get my book(s) published too, since his email address is up there. All i need to do is to ask him on the procedures ... i am one step closer to one of my less ambitious dreams :D

Ok, imagine this scenario: You go to your friend's friend's wedding, and given a choice, you would rather stay at home--if it were not for moral reasons. So things get pretty awkward for you since you barely know the guests there, but you are willing to wait till the wedding reception ends because you have learnt from your friend that your friend does not have any transportation back home. It's 9PM and people are deserting the reception except for the close friends and relatives of the bride and the groom. And then the clock strikes 10PM. The awakwardness intensifies since there are only a few tables left, one of which is occupied by your friend and his other friends who are apparently drinking their everything away. Then, your friend comes along, and apologizes for your discomfort, and you go, "It's fine. I get it!" Your friend requests if you can wait till 11PM. So you decide to go outside of the reception for a drink or so just to kill the time, while lett

When words don't say much anymore LOL ...

The two-week holiday is almost over, and it hasn't been awful. I could manage to go on a family trip to SR for two nights, though I doubt whether the first could be counted since we apparently spent exactly 13 hours on the road and only made it to SR at 8 30pm or so. And of course, I managed to have some time on my own like going to the gym and all. Speaking of which, I think I have been so much into gyming lately, probably because I want to regain my good shape and to have a ripped body, and also because working out can be surprisingly stress-relieving. Anyways, I know I still have a freaking long way to go before i am able to reap the fruits out of the whole on-and-off workout routine of mine, but you know what they say? Quitters never win and winners never quit! So yeah, the summer vacation lasts a few more days, and when the school starts, I will find myself frantically zooming here and there to get things done again! I like it, though. When I am busy, I feel productive!

Alright, it's been a long while since I posted anything here. After some hours of talking to gaara sand, I was given the inspiration to blog again, and this time, I am going to make it open to the public ... And yes, there will be fewer sad posts! My brain should have been fed enough with all the negative thoughts, so it's time my brain deserved some fresh air and good, healthy thoughts. So stay tuned for more posts ...