Riding Through it All ...

It is a Friday night! I love other Friday nights, but not this one! I was out driving around the city for two hours aimlessly, and man!!!! It sucked!!!! It made me feel emotionally dependent. It is funny that loneliness has always been a part of my life, yet I seem not to be able to cope with it so well. And as I am typing this, I am wondering whether it is possible to actually enjoy yourself ALONE????

I am supposed to attend my law classes at UC this evening, but the thing is I am not in the mood to do so; therefore, I end up seeking comfort from this soft convenient couch at Nosh Cafe. It is just 6 20 PM over here, and I am the only guest in the restaurant. It is lonely, yeah! But well what can you say? After all, loneliness is part of life. One way or another you get lonely once in a while. Anyways, this place is a really cosy relaxing place! The special thing about this place is the live musical performance available here! I have to admit that a big piece of my life would be missing without music, and this place offers just the right type that i dearly love! Besides, I have performed here quite often too...

It is a gloomy day! I am sure people who are going through some sort of emotional hardship will not be able to resist the negative impacts that the rainy weather has on them, and will therefore break down hugging themselves in tears at one corner of the room or something like that. It has been raining all day long. Some say there is storm at this place and that place, but I am not sure who to believe. Anyway, i have finally managed to find my comfort zone here at GJC. And with the steamy creamy hot chocolate i have ordered, it warms my heart against the harsh coldness outside. I happen to be sitting close to these two rich-looking ladies. Of course, they are rich or at least appear to be rich. They are wearing dazzling diamond rings. The handbags they are using are the designer products. And of course the looks! And they are having a "rich" conversation as well! The topics range from the GS 300 car they have just bought to the overseas trips to New Zealand and to the thousand...

The rain had been pouring down for more than half an hour already, and there was still no sign of slacking off. The sky was pitch dark now though Ratha's watch had just struck 6 30pm. It was almost impossible to stay sheltered from the windy rain under the old IFL bridge. The chill was running down his spine, and despite the fact that he hugged himself to keep warm, he had little success with it. It took him some good minutes to realize that he was not the only one seeking shelter and comfort from this decades old bridge whose paints were peeling off, and which was probably ranked as the ugliest bridge of all. Ten meters away below the bridge stood a girl with arms around herself, and her backpack school bag slung over her shoulder. She was occasionally casting glances at her watch as if by doing so, she would be able to speed up the time. IFL was now deserted. The faint yellow lights of the lamp posts cast their shadow eerily on certain spots of the compound. Ratha wanted to appr...

Just realize that it hurts when you cut your own flesh! But then sometimes it's too much to bear with.

Well I have not seen my elder bro for two days already. There is no doubt that he has been so busy with work these days, which is obviously a good thing in the financial aspect. But then he loses his temper so easily now. Just a simple phone call from me to ask where he is could make him hit the roof. Of course, I do not take any of this to heart, for I understand someone with all this amount of work to handle everyday is already having a hard time physically and psychologically, and the last thing I wish to do is to add more stress to the existing amount. But then when my exhaustion sets in, I could be real nasty with him too. I learn to curb my anger and frustration more now in his presence, though. It only resurfaces when his attitude is a little extreme, when he needs someone harsh enough like me to tell him in the face to stop. And yeah, it works! b8ee8328-cbea-4508-9b4d-54ad6f12c6eb 1.03.01

Throughout a life journey, there are lots of moments. Moments you laugh out loud till you get the stitches in your stomach. Moments you cry your heart out because you lose someone dearest to you. Moments you stand motionless mesmerized by the beauty of the surroundings and that of your lover. Moments of silence that seems so loud because everyone in the room is so overwhelmed by one particular piece of devastating news. And September 15 is one of those moments! It is the moment that scars and scares you. It is the moment that makes you feel the twist and turn in the stomach. It is the moment that makes those little scalding teardrops roll down your face. It is the moment that comes haunting you with memories, good and bad. It is one of those moments of a lifetime! ................. Yet it is the onset of the new beginning! b8ee8328-cbea-4508-9b4d-54ad6f12c6eb 1.03.01