Riding Through it All ...

Guess what? I have to admit that I believe in the highs and the lows of luck now! I remember reading this horoscope, and it says that Love Star is in my chart this year. To me, it is lame! But now that things have happened almost effortlessly lately, I start to think that perhaps I should give credits to what are predicted about me in the book. It is easy to just turn people down without hurting them. I have my own way of doing that, and it works! But it is anything but easy when you find yourself stuck in between two people, both of whom have always been on your list. It is probably the topic of ridicule when people come to think of this! But it is one hell of a nerve-racking decision I have to make! Pheary told me to go with the flow, and i think for the current situation I am being in now, this suggestion makes perfect sense to me. Nevertheless, the flow here tends to go in the direction of the girl who bravely poured her innermost feeling to me. A few days earlier, I updated my s...

The heat of the afternoon sun was beating hard on me despite the fact that I stayed in shades most of the time. Bathed in perspiration, I thought of the cool soothing sensation that Oishi would be able to provide me. I jumped to my feet and made my way towards the canteen. The school was then almost deserted because the Open Debate Forum had been brought to a close half an hour ago. While some other adjudicators had already set off, I was still lingering on the campus to keep Pagna and Vina company. Here and there, students in light pink Debate T-shirts huddled, engrossed in conversations which were barely audible but which occasionally broke into boisterous laughter. On the edges of the pond perched some other students in various colors. My gaze fell upon a lady student who was dressed up neatly in school uniform at the furthest corner. Given my bad eyesight, it took me some good seconds before I could figure out that she was my student. It was evident that she was being carried away ...

It struck me with a devastating blow. My jaw literally dropped wide-open. I had to pause for a while to let things sink in a bit, to buy myself time to process the whole shattering story. To ensure all this was not merely a fragment of my imagination, I looked straight into the eyes of the person who had poured the heart out to me a few seconds earlier, and searched for the answer. It was all in those eyes! It was no mistake! It was the truth! Suddenly, I f elt half-asleep and half-awake. Those many shops, the crowd , and the noise seemed to blend together and seemed to revolve around me with the speed of a lightning. Despite how much I wished it had been a dream, i know deep down that it would never be!. Never!

I feel I am standing alone at the peak of this mountain. Coldness pervades through every inch of my entire body. All I can do to keep myself warm is to hug my trembling body tightly with my both arms. The occasional chilly breeze sends this cold tingling sensation from my neck down to the base of my spine. I swivel around, desperately hoping any of my friends are in sight. The more often I do so, the more convinced I am of the painful truth that I AM ALONE.

"Go hang out with your friends lah!" This is what people will say to me when I tell them about how boredom keeps torturing me. It is true that hanging out friends does help a lot. However, the worst scenario is when you are dying to get out to have fun but then this thought of knowing that none of your friends is around or available strikes me with a blow. And this is what i am talking about when I say I am bored!!! There have been a lot of occasions on which I drop in on certain places alone. But after ten minutes or so of undergoing the "alone" feeling I feel fed up and start leaving again. Now both staying locked up in my room and going out aimlessly alone are the only remaining options. I do not want to keep whining about this to people around because I am sure they will judge me one way or the other without making any attempt to understand me. I know this sounds really pathetic. And I really hope these days will soon pass too! Some people even come up with such...