Letting go...Dedicated to heart-broken souls


Letting go is so hard, don’t you think?

You have got every reason to let go, but you just can’t! And each time you make up your mind so firmly about letting go, on the back of your mind you doubt the possibility of ever being able to let go. You fake a laugh, and force a smile everyday, trying to look perfectly "intact", though your inside is so broken up. At times you are so lost and confused that you are not even sure anymore whether someone else is actually living your very life. There is nothing to look forward to. Nothing. Sometimes you look at your own reflection, and suddenly you miss the old, happy YOU, but deep down you realize how impossible it is to be who you were again. Not after what happened. You fail to let go again and again despite how determined to let go. Then you start shrouding yourself with all kinds of nasty self-accusations because you just can’t let go. You detest it! Sad songs become your favourites, and there are certain special selections that you can’t bear with because there is always this lump in your throat every time you let yourself get carried away.

Letting go is just too hard! But coercing yourself to let go is even worse!

Comments

Unknown said…
This time i'm very first to comment haha! hei, ven, it sounds to me as that u're so serious about LOVE stuff now.. err, letting go... well, i can say that what u said was ALL true to me. it's hard to let go... i mean even if u tend to let it go, ur inner will not let it go.. so still haunting u each moment u're thinking back of the past. no matter how u fake a pretty smile on ur face, everyone will see u thru when the sadness come out from u. well, i'm very emotional when comes to this kinda topic dude. what i'm saying is that we must let it go! don't have the old imagination in our mind. i'm sure we can do. i'm also sure, u'll meet someone better than the old one!
April 11, 2008 at 2:44 AM
MarshMarllow6338 said…
OMG!!! I just posted this entry some minutes ago and when i was back i already saw your comment, man!lol...wow...your are damn fast!!!

Anyway, right, i guess everyone is emotional when it comes to this evry topic, man. And yeah i have seen too many heart broken souls so of course it makes me witness how this has ruined lots of lives. Metting someone better? Dude, again this entrry is supposed to be for others, man...lol
April 11, 2008 at 2:57 AM
Unknown said…
err, heh heh, when u were posting the topic, i guess i was already on ur blog ;) lolz.. so i followed ya everywhere to others' blog haha... err, hei, i thought u were mentioning abt ur self :P haha.. i felt that u know when i was reading ur post.. abt this topic. well, no matter how hard it is, we should let go for the sake of being happy.
April 11, 2008 at 3:00 AM
Anonymous said…
Just curiousm, my dearest!!
Am i one of those you dedicated this entry to?
April 11, 2008 at 3:44 AM
Sopheary said…
I would define 'letting go' as 'escapism' or 'obstacle-phobia' which should be the last exit being approached when there is no way out. Though there are certain things that are out of control of humans, we should summon all the might we have and fight to the fullest before we 'give up'. If after having encountered the obstacles, we hastily cling to 'letting go' motto, then life would be just a series of random events with nothing to be learned.
April 12, 2008 at 12:16 AM
Sopheary said…
Just a few more words. If 'letting go is too hard! But coercing yourself to let go is even worse!', y try to let go? The 'impossible' can happen every time, so sometimes we should let go of 'letting go'.
April 12, 2008 at 12:23 AM
Anonymous said…
I don't think that we can ever let go.. the shadow of the past will keep haunting us, either in a good way or a bad way.. i'm speaking from experience here haha.. But the past has past, take it as a lesson n learn from it..
The past is what makes me who i am today, a stronger person..
April 16, 2008 at 1:09 AM
Anonymous said…
yep i agree with Nan. She has definitely become stronger. If you find it hard to turn your past into your advantage, then that is when friends come in.
April 16, 2008 at 8:02 PM
MarshMarllow6338 said…
My apologies to each and everyone of you here for my being so late...Back from a very wonderful trip, you see.

To Pheaktra: Well, it is dedicated to heart-broken souls, and if you are one of them, then of course it is for you :-).
April 16, 2008 at 9:03 PM
MarshMarllow6338 said…
To PM: you know what? saying is one thing and doing is another thing. I am sure you are fully aware of this very cliche. "letting go" should be the last exit, i agree, but for heart-broken souls, there is nothing better than letting go. So obviously it is the first, the only and the last way out. And guess what? Nobody wants to give up, and they let go no because they are too weak to fight back, but simply put, they are too understanding and caring to fight back on their impulse.
April 16, 2008 at 9:08 PM
MarshMarllow6338 said…
To Nan: i am totally on your side about the fact that we all should learn our lessons and that we all should take advantage from those lessons, but i doubt--again--the possibility of doing that, you know. I mean, yeah, it is a piece of cake when it comes to terms with obstacles other than love.
April 16, 2008 at 9:11 PM
MarshMarllow6338 said…
To Bro Smey: I guess you are right. Friends are always there for us:-) But i am sure they will be bored to death when every time we meet them we always keep whining lol...
April 16, 2008 at 9:12 PM
Barbie said…
I might be abit late, but I just can't stand not to jump in with this great post of yours. Really luv it. Feeling like you're talking about me. This is incredibly touchy esp to me :) Thumbs up for you Ven :)
April 17, 2008 at 6:36 AM
MarshMarllow6338 said…
To Barbie: so you are one of the victimized too??? I dunno whether i should say, "Hey, congratulations, BarBEE!" or "So sorry to hear that"

Anyway, hope that you will be able to let go, BarBEE, but do not force yourself too.
April 19, 2008 at 12:57 AM
Barbie said…
I've been trying to be a bit more realistic, but there seems to be no way. It's probably the matter of time, I guess. I do hope time will help lessen my pain in losing, but how long? I just don't know.

Thks for ur sympathetic reassurance. I'll try to treat the imperfections of my life as a dream, though its hard to do so, I still have to move on. A hug
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