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... the smell of April

Well, if you have read my blog long enough, you probably have come across an article about my belief in Fenghui. Yes, that's right--Fengshui! Judge me all you like, but I have been there and done that--I used to be the so-called "man for himself" believing in hard work and commitment and judging people who embrace superstition and Fengshui as people with excuses. Now however, I have let Fengshui become part of my "life manual". I don't necessarily put my future solely in the hands of Fengshui. Of course hard work and committment play a larger role. But I now believe that there is a higher power, power beyond anything human, power that affects--though not necessarily controls--life. Anyways, to cut a long story short, the Fengshui book has said that March is a month of misfortune and April is when everything falls into place and my life hits a jackpot. It's the 31st of March, and though I am just about 9 hours away from the dawn of April, I already f

Bottled Up?

Well, I have felt that a lot are bottled up inside me, and finding a means to let it out has never been more difficult. I remember resorting to Facebook as a platform where I can let thoughts wander off. But now? Nope. I just can't do that anymore! The truth is the moment my status gets a little personal and "deep", people start coming up with all sorts of comments of how "drama-queen-like" I am. Plus, I don't think stripping yourself off the guard and therefore leaving yourself naked with vulnerability does me any good anymore. At least i've got the Instagram, though! I do write about my thoughts and feelings once in a while, yes, but given how limited in number of words each text allows, it has never been comfortable either! Talking everything out? Nahhhhhhhhh ... First, i don't think I have someone who is truly and genuinely interested. Second, I fear attachment! The last time I tried to detach from my close friends emotionally, it was close to a