19/01/09

Chinese New Year is coming up very soon, but I have no plans yet! To be very honest, I do not even feel the slightest excitement. Well, of course, the best part of it is the fact that I will probably have three days off from work, which is good enough for a short breather somewhere outside the bustling city life. But then if i were to choose, i'd prefer to cuddle on my bed, covered with my comforting blanket, watching a really nice goodie or something like that. That should be good enough! Not much fuss is needed here! However, I am positive that my parents have plans already, and it is very likely that we are heading to some province. And now I start to feel so comfortable and so warmed in the presence of my parents and brothers and my close relatives. What could have explained this phenomenon, i have no idea! All I know is that I am delighted with how things are, or at least that is how i feel right now.

Anyway, i attended my cousin's birthday party yesterday, and I have to admit that it was a real nice breather for me. I had so much fun dancing and singing, being so carefree and all. At least, I was feeling that way at first. Well it was before long that something sucked the happiness out of me all of a sudden. And God, thinking about it, my whole heart just went out to THEM. Then it got me thinking, "What is the point of having so much if all it takes to hurt you so deep is just something so little? The little thing that matters the most?" Sigh...reality could definitely be really harsh. And I am proud of those resilient souls out there who always rise every time they fall flat onto the hard barren earth.

Anyway, let me say, "I AM SORRY", to those whom I have upset, knowingly and unknowingly, in some way. And please forgive me!

Overheard

I do not mean to eavesdrop on people's conversations, but as I am typing this entry now, I happen to overhear this "guy" talking on voice chat to this "girl". I cannot almost believe my ears!!! THE GUY IS SWEET-TALKING THE GIRL INTO ACCEPTING HIM AS A BOYFRIEND! God, this is outrageous! According to the conservation, which somehow sends chill all over my body, they have never seen each other. Nor have they ever contacted each other before. But I think they sound quite experienced with making the appointment and stuff. What has become of the world? These people are totally insane, aren't they? Is it just me or this "phenomenon" has been going on without my knowledge? So this is definitely one of the many misuses of the internet. Oh man!!!

Just stuff...

As I am typing this entry, my back is longing for something comforting and soft. This is just the fifth day with the dawn of the year 2009, and I cannot help but feel "something" already. Another 360 days to go! Then what? It is demoralizing, really, having nothing to look forward to. I know it is true that it is not exciting anymore when you can find excitement every corner you turn to in your daily life. But sometimes with this realization sinking further and further, we still feel the longing for it because all we are asking for is "something", something that can give a little spark, small at first but big as time goes by, to keep this thingie inside us alive and energetic. I have no idea whether it is just me or the time really flies this time. Weeks just sort of zoom past your eyes...

Sigh...