Riding Through it All ...

It pains me to the core when I witness how dreams and hopes have been shattered beyond repair by the power of love. Maybe love is a necessary evil in a sense! With my eyes, I watch from the distance how friends, relatives and acquaintances stumble into the overwhelming realm of love and never come out unscathed. The moment they step out over that threshold, they will never be the same again. Scattered all over their bodies are wounds, too deep to even heal without leaving scars. And in my attempt to help them out of the misery, it suddenly dawns upon me that there is so much I can say yet so little I can do. Nobody can make things right for them again but the two parties involved. Usually, they are not left with many choices. They either have to move on, trying to convince themselves each day that they are perfectly fine, or they remain stuck wherever they are, holding onto this small hope that things will just be different one day though deep down they know it is not going to happen.

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE. They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE." The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?" The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it." LEARN

Oh God....! This feels really really good! During this ONE WHOLE MONTH, for the very first time, i feel so "freed". No pressure. No more deadlines to meet. No more rushing. What a big relief!!! I am starting to feel a lot better than i did a few days earlier. Or at least i am feeling better right now . I was observed for the last time this afternoon, and the result was more than satisfactory--or so i feel . And now i am starting to dread the last day with my students from Sisovath High School because i don't want to leave them yet. Believe it or not, for this couple of weeks, they have really impressed me with their language ability. And each day with them has been the day of a new lesson for not only the students, but also for me as a teacher. Looking back to the one-week practicum workshop, during which my mind was more than corrupted with all sorts of nasty stereotypes towards students in Sisovath in general, i am feeling guilty to the core now. It is unbelieveable ho

I am feeling so lost and small now. From where i am standing i can make out what is lying far ahead of me. A dead end. And all of a sudden, i feel so weak and drained. Should i continue walking? Or should i stop here and look for another exit which, by no stretch of the imagination, is in sight ? There is no turning back now! I am stuck at where i am standing, and there is no way i can wriggle out of it. I watch chances slipping through my fingers with a sinking heart, feeling so helpless. Or maybe things are not as bad as they appear to be? Maybe everything before me is just an illusion? Maybe it isn't a dead end? Maybe it is an exit to the real world out there instead? And everytime i smile now i betray my inner self. There are too many things flashing through my mind, too many to even make sense out of any. Day by day, i shrink! One day i might just disappear into nothingness.

I was watching “Titanic” the other day when the old Rose said, “A woman’s heart is a deep ocean of secrets.” This is not just one of the random sayings, I feel. There is every truth in it! More often than not, however enduring a relationship is, misunderstanding opens a crack, narrow at first, but wider as the time goes by. And guess what the root of misunderstanding is? Obviously, SECRETS! It is a bare truth that faith is highly prized with utmost priority in any relationships. Faith starts to wear off when either one of the parties has so many things to hide, so many secrets, that it paves the way for skepticism to set in. You will be amazed at how destructive skepticism can be to your relationship. Thus start confiding in your partner as much as you can, especially girls! Make sure only a small room is left for secrets! For your information, ladies, guys really hate seeing their partners having a top secret conversation right before their eyes because it makes them feel “small” and

You brighten my day Help me choose the right way You are my friend You lend me your hand Help me understand You are my friend And when my skys Are cloudy and grey You know just what to say 'Cause we're friends Friends Forever And we're singing along yes we're friends, friends and we'll stay together I know that's how we belong You're there in good times and bad When I'm happy or sad You are my friend I depend upon you And I'll be there for you too You are my friend And when the years someday make us part

( The Egytian Symbol of Eternal Life) Life must be lived forward but must be understood backward. Life is sometimes anything but joy. Life is sometimes accursed. Life is sometimes unfair. And life sometimes seems unworthy. At times—on countless occasions, in fact—emotionally vulnerable as we are, we are trapped as preys to what I would like to refer to as “stupid” thoughts that increase the already-rapid pulsing of the blood vessels, and that, in turn, push us towards the very edge of our lives by creating an illusion of an “exit” to a new, worry-free world, only to discover that the door is sealed and that the only way to be “freed” is to put an end to our lives through such most self-destructive acts as suicide attempts. However, as it transpires, life is an ever-growing tree, small and fragile at first, but big and strong as time goes by. Life is, moreover, a never-ending collection of self-instructed and experiment-based lessons being compiled one after another. Life is also a piec

Never go thirsty when going to bed and besure you have plenty of water during your 8-hour rest. Bangungot has killed a male nurse of UERMMH. It is sudden death in adults which cause them to die while sleeping. Many theories have been put forward as its cause. However, here is an article which sheds some light to the cause of this malady. Please read on: Article from THE PHILIPPINE STAR: The reported cause of actor Rico Yan's death is nightmare or bangungot. Medical investigators in China , Japan and several Asian countries who performed autopsies on persons who died from "acute hemorrhagic pancreatitis" found out that the majority of them had eaten NOODLES as their supper. This was a startling finding.However, it wasn't the noodles that caused nightmares but DEHYDRATION. Imbibing even with a few drinks of alcohol or just eating noodles immediately before bedtime compound this on an empty stomach will trigger an electrolyte imbalance and other factors that causes a per

Dear All, A few weeks ago, in a cinema, a person felt something poking from her seat. When she got up to see what it was, she found a needle sticking out of the seat with a note attached saying, "You have just been infected by HIV (AIDS)". The Disease Control Center (in Paris ) reports many similar events in many other cities recently. All tested needles were HIV Positive. The Center also reports that needles have been found in cash dispensers (ATM) at public banking machines. We ask everyone to use extreme caution when faced with this kind of situation. All public chairs/seats should be inspected with vigilance and caution before use. A careful visual inspection should be enough. In addition, they ask that each of you pass this message along to all members of your family and your friends of the potential danger. Recently, one doctor has narrated a somewhat similar instance that happened to one of his patients at the Praia Cinema in Delhi . A young girl engaged and about to b

Life is a rollercoaster of emotions! There are times when our emotions run high, and those are the moments we wish more than anything to just vanish into nothingness, into the world where only heart-broken souls dwell. But then of course, there are others when we feel that we are the luckiest persons on earth, and those are the moments we wish more than anything to cease time so that our loved ones would remain embraced in our arms forever. In whichever situation we are in, be ready to press the "Stop" button and weigh all the necessary considerations before jumping to whatever decisions you are going to make.

Just got back from KFC with Hour, Mo, Nory, Tro, and Paul. Of course, i was very excited--as i always do, in fact, when it comes to KFC. I mean, KFC has always been my favorite fast food restaurant, thanks to its mouth-watering cheese fries. Unfortunately, there were no cheese fries on the menu, much to my disappointment, of course! Anyway, i still indulged myself in the two pieces of spicy chicken. Despite being years of being physically apart from KFC, i could still tell apart the differences in the taste of the KFC chicken in Sinagpore and that in Cambodia. But glancing at Mr. Colonel--or so he is called--was kind of comforting and it sort of brought back the faint smell of familarity. Well, there were a lot of foreigners walking over that threshhold of the restaurant, probably as excited as i was. As crazy as it may sound, i think something is missing. Something important. And without it, KFC to me would never be the same.

Guess which one was mine?...i am sure you guys know what the answer is...I think it looks most most attractive... The guests were not there yet...Guess where i was then? Well, making phone calls...hehe... Drooling...!! Yummy... Happy Birthday to US...Happy Birthday to US... Making a wish...I remember wishing only a wish...I wished all my wishes would come true...hehe Oops...i must be chewing something...i didn't realize that!! Well...here comes what should come...I think i am the most handsome of all...hehe Gratefulness...Giving a piece of cake to my parents...Getting a lot of wishes from them...I am so grateful to be born as my parents'son... These photos were taken on the 29th of Febuary, my bro's once-every-four-year birthday. Well, mine and my elder bro's were also celebrated on that day, since we all are February boys. Only close relatives and friends were invited, so it was not a really big party celebration. But it was definitely a great moment to remember.