From the inner self

Dear Vendy:

I know you have taken excessively large amounts of caffeine lately--whether they are found in tea or coffee, and this is probably why you are feeling that you are being anxiety-stricken. I just wanna let you know that the problems that are in your head right now are 10 times bigger than they actually are in real life! It is just your head--and yes, the caffeine--playing tricks on you! You are gonna be fine! Of course some of the things that you are required to do are things you are not familiar with or things that put you under pressure. But don't you get worked up about them! You will go out there, close your eyes, take a deep breath, and do what you can do! If you screw up, it is okay! Lessons learnt and just move on! Remember, Vendy, both you and I want the best for you, and to reap the most out of this experience, you need to step out of your comfort zone, but you can take your time doing it! There is no need to rush! And don't you worry about the future! Nobody knows what future holds! Yes, you may wanna get prepared for it, but stressing yourself out about the uncertain, fickle future will only do you more harm than good. Do what you can do, and let the river take its course! Remember, Vendy, you have been through worse! In fact, whatever you are gonna go through now is so promising you should not be worried about it at all!

Criticisms! Yes, some of them are harsh, hurt you, and leave scars! But detach yourself from PERFECTING everything because it is impossible! Accept the fact that you are lazy, imperfect, and sometimes stupid, and just live with those criticisms because venturing into the larger world, you have to learn to shrug things off and manage to enjoy yourself amid all the stares and glares. I need to make sure you know that you are one heck of a worker! Whatever it is that you set your heart and mind to always results in excellence--if not perfection! And some of the people who have experienced your work know it well! While deadlines are inevitable, you just need to sit down and manage your time a little better with a pen and some pieces of paper! Yes, pen and paper!

This month is probably one of the most challenging for you in the recent time, Vendy, I can tell, with all the possible transitions! Yes, there are moments--popping up quite often now--when you find yourself being dragged into self-doubt about a lot of things: whether it is the right decision, whether it is  YOUR thing, whether you can bear with it, whether it is even worth it, whether it is for the better or for the worse ... You need to know this, Vendy! You deserve this transition, and you can do it! Yes, things might seem a little awkward for you at first, but that is how it is! You will learn, and you will adapt! You have the whole family backing you up, remember? You can do this, Vendy! You can't just let the fear keep you from getting there! You need to take this chance, and we are talking about a good promising chance here that not many people are given! That's life, Vendy! Don't you always want to venture into some sort of business? Exactly! This is how it is supposed to feel!

Okay! So now, go to bed, have a nice sleep, wake up tomorrow, do what you have to do, and you will be amazed at how nice things can turn out for you! Conquer your fear, Vendy, because that is the only way to get rid of it once and for all!

Good night!

Inner Self